Running Out of Life, So I Do What I Want

That line’s been sitting with me lately. Maybe because every day I’m realizing just how different I really am. From my usual “the sky is falling” rants to my “money isn’t real” theories and the occasional “we’re all living in the Truman Show” conversation, I can’t help but see the world a little differently.

Even these blogs play a part in it. They’re not just me rambling…they’re reminders. Reminders that we all have less time ahead than behind. Do with that what you will. For me, it’s a reason to stay present. To make sure I’m actually here and not just existing on autopilot.

What I feel is the truest form of freedom is just that…freedom. No ties. No expectations. No pretending. Is it freedom to everyone else? Probably not. But that’s the thing about life, it’s all about perspective.

I know a lot of people have forgotten what individuality even feels like because they’ve gotten too used to blending in. Me? I’ll always be that one who reminds you by example. Resilience is something I wear well, and I’m not afraid to stand alone if that’s what it takes to stay real.

I’m running out of life, so I’m focusing on what truly matters: myself, my children, my family. Whatever others think that looks like, that’s not my burden to carry. I’ve learned not to live for other people’s perceptions. Some will never understand your reasons until they need to find their own.

I’m blessed in many ways, but I’d be lying if I said I haven’t felt cursed too. Somehow the two seem to coexist. Maybe they always have. But that’s a story for another blog.

I do my best not to just be this “artist”, this “creative advisor” or whatever label people want to use. I see myself more as a blueprint that keeps evolving…a guide for creatives who see life differently, who don’t fit the mold, who question everything like I do. It’s funny because what some people would call my weakness has been the very thing that built my path. What they once saw as a “disability,” I’ve turned into a career, all on my own terms.

And yeah, maybe this post feels like one long introduction, but that’s kind of the point. It’s the warm up before the conversation. The setup before we dive into the next thing. Because that’s life, it’s all just one long setup for what’s coming next.

Running out of life, so I do what I want. A short but real reminder to do what matters to you.

Funny, I feel like I’ve said that before. Well… maybe it’s worth saying again.

Alright, that’s it for now. Until next time.

Hope this helps,

-B