There’s No Need for the Internal War

This one is for me. Just me. You’re welcome to read along, but know this…I didn’t write it for you. I wrote it because sometimes I need to leave breadcrumbs for myself, a trail of words to remind me of who I am and what I’m capable of when life feels heavy.

So, Justin…here we are again. You did it. Another cycle. Another chapter. Another rerun of an old part of your story that you somehow flipped into something new. This time you didn’t just revisit it…you painted it. You gave it color. You gave it life again. And that’s not something to overlook.

But let me ask: are you proud of yourself?

Because the odds are rarely in your favor. They stack up like mountains, daring you to climb them with no rope, no safety net. And yet, you keep moving. You don’t stop. You don’t fold. How?

How do you continue to show up for others, for your business, for your family, for your children…for yourself? Brandon, Justin, whoever you are today, how do you keep pulling it off?

And since the question lingers, I’ll answer it.

I keep going because I don’t see myself where others might see me. I don’t measure myself against today alone. In my mind, I’m light years ahead. The only way to catch up to that version of me, the one who’s already made it, already built it, already secured it…is to wake up every day and keep showing up. Not perfectly, but intentionally. For me. For my kids. For my family. For the younger version of me who knew this could all be possible.

That’s the truth.

And let me be honest about something else, crying is part of my daily routine now. Not a breakdown, not weakness, but a release. At least once a day, I let it out. I let myself feel. And instead of burying my emotions, I ask them why. Why do you hurt? Why are you heavy? Why are you here? The answers don’t always show up neatly packaged, but they show up enough. Enough to move me forward. Enough to remind me I’m alive.

I’ve realized that tears aren’t an enemy, they’re a teacher. They’re a sign that I’m still connected, still present. And presence is everything.

Because even if what I have right now feels small in comparison to what I envision, I know where I’m headed. I know what’s possible in 10 years, 20 years. Future me deserves that reality. And present me has to plant the seeds. Not someday. Today.

So what does this have to do with the internal war?

Everything.

The war is that back and forth, that constant tug of war between who you are and who you think you’re not. It’s the endless interrogation of yourself… the doubts, the questions, the second guessing. It’s not a battle against the world; it’s a battle against the voice inside your head that never seems to quiet down.

And if you’re confused reading this, that’s okay. I said it in the beginning: this is for me. But if you’re still here, maybe it’s because you’ve been waging your own internal war, and maybe you needed to hear this too.

Let me be the vessel, if that’s what it takes. Let me put my vulnerabilities on the table so you don’t have to pretend with yours.

Because here’s the truth: deep down, we all know what we want. We all know the direction we’re supposed to move in. Some of us chase it. Some of us run from it.

And a lot of us let outside voices, opinions, words, doubts, comparisons…drag us into battles we don’t even need to fight.

That’s the real war.

And it doesn’t have to continue.

There’s no need for the internal war. Not when we already carry enough weight in this life. Not when the real fight is out there, in the choices we make and the steps we take. The internal war only slows us down, distracts us, convinces us that we’re not enough when, truthfully, we already are.

And here’s the hard part, the longer we let the internal war rage on, the more stagnant we become. The more we paralyze ourselves with “what ifs” and “maybe laters.” And when we do that, we rob the future version of us of the life they deserve.

If I keep letting the war go on, the me of today won’t make the me of tomorrow proud. And I can’t allow that.

Neither should you.

Because if you really think about it, the war is only keeping you stuck. The you of today has the chance to build a foundation the you of tomorrow will stand on with pride or regret. It’s your choice. Keep fighting yourself and stay stagnant, or put down the weapons, step into your truth, and finally move.

Tomorrow is waiting. The only question is, will the you of today give the you of tomorrow something to be proud of?

Hope this helps,

-B